Why isn't anyone trying to help me . Plz help I ll answers yours too?

I met my gf 6 months back, because of college and exam stuffs we couldn't manage to meet. We had proposed a favourable time to meet few weeks ago.since everything was messed up with me . Like sometimes I was I'll sometimes there was no one in the home.. So I just kept on post ponding days to meet her. But the day never came.. I explained everything to her she s like she can understand me.. But she really felt bad.. I miss touching hugging n kissing her . I am going to become so mad I am really confused n stressed.. As I try to tell her hat I am really willing to meet her again she doesnt responds .. I am just so tensed my mind is going to explode plz help ....I just can't live without touching her